46. Drink no soda for a year.
I knew when I set out, that this would be a particularly hard challenge for me. I have been addicted (yes, addicted) to soda for years now. Through every diet program I’ve tried, although I almost always increase my water intake, I still have diet – and sometimes reglar – soda with me. Diet coke, Coke Zero (aka “skinny coke”), Fanta, Mt. Dew, Dr. Pepper, Root Beer…. it doesn’t make a lot of difference to me. My favorite is ice cold, sugared, and caffinated, but I’ve been plenty happy to make do with non-caffinated or sugar free as the situation requires.
As of today I’m finishing my fifth day straight without any soda.
Day one wasn’t as hard as I thought…. my gut instinct was still to reach for a can first thing in the morning, but I was still cruising on the novelty of it all. Day two was harder…. Day three was hardest yet – but I didn’t give in! Day four was cruisy and I didn’t really pine for any at all. There were a couple times where I thought, gee, a can of coke would be nice about now… but that’s all it ever was. A passing thought, not a huge regret, not an act of willpower.
Day Five has been hard.
Funnily enough I started the day with a very realistic dream that I’d drank some Mt. Dew. It was clearly a dream – it wasn’t placed in my current residence, we don’t currently have any Mt. Dew in the house, and I was a blonde (go figure! 😉 ) but my goal of no soft drink was still present in the dream, and as soon as I succumed (in dream form) to the drink I felt guilty, and then pissed off at myself because this meant I’d have to start the count all over.
The dream, like they usually are, was revealing though. I have a whole long list of reasons why I want to quit the habit – hopefully for good, but definitely for long enough that it’s well and truly out of my system – but that’s another post for another day. But when I have been really struggling with the cravings – like I did today, and like I did on Day three – the things that come to mind that help me hold off are not the reasons why I want to quit, overall. I think those reasons all seem too lofty and unconnected to me, albeit very valid regardless. But the main reasons have to do with myself. I don’t want to let myself down. I don’t want to let those monitoring my progess down. (Accountability is a good thing!) And most imporantly, I don’t want to have to do these five days again. My 101 challenge does allow for failure and restarts – it’s not no soft drink ever again, or even in the time period… it’s no soda, for 365 days. Any 365 days. I just happened to choose the first lot of them. Largely because I anticipated having to really work at this… and largely because I have something to prove. To myself. I can do this, and I am better than the drink 😉